Guilty as charged

okay so it's not my fault... but I still feel guilty and I feel the weather is punishing me for not going to laguna knowing..... that it's my moms birthday today.


I woke up late this morning at around 5:15 am, this pass few days I usually wake up around 3 in the morning straight to the computer to do my thing... finish my reports in chemistry. Chemistry subject has really been a pain on my neck lately, I mean with all the things that I have to to do (memorize formulas, mix solutions, wash testtubes every experiments, read very THICK books etc. etc) I can't seem to know which should go first. while having breakfast I had a bit sermon from my aunt which for me is inappropriate coz I'm doing everything that I can to meet her standards, but still it isn't enough. left the house around 6am for my LTS class. it's the 26th of august and it's my mom's birthday and I was suppose to go to his office until my kuya had a change of plans....

mIni tutOr minEe Moe

went to my kuya's place after class but before I knew it he was not yet ready to go and got disappointed when I heard that we're not going to meet my sister... I was planning we could have some kind of a family get together.. things that a family usually do, eat together take pictures together, laugh and tease each other... I badly miss those days.... *tear drop*. my brother's girlfriend taught me a lesson in chemistry that I had trouble with heheeh.. good thing she's also a nursing student 2 years ahead of me. after that we went to makati and ate at North Park heheeh... it was my first time to eat there. the food was great and the three of us had a great time... I just wish my mom and sister was there. =(



it's surprising how things could not go the way you planned it, things that was suppose to be happy turned sad. unfortunately for me... this is the first time I have never glanced at my mom's face on her birthday... my heart sinks of the thought that my mom would sleep alone in bed tonight... not even given the chance to see one of her three kids... I wish I could make it up to her...