thinking of the unknown

I guess it really helps when you get to write about something. lets you feel free to say anything about something. for me, that is a somehow become a problem.when i don't get to write about something, I can't seem to get over it. like right know. some things that are bothering me are the following :).


Feet Protection...

I just realized that different people have different feet size, shoes and color, sometimes you can even tell someone's status by just looking at their feet. a farmer has cracked heels while a model has an almost perfect feet (what makes it imperfect is the fact that it is actually sometimes too big). I child's feet looks soft and innocent that's because they still don't have the capability to walk a long miles on their own, using their feet. a "taong grasa" has a feet full of dirt that whenever you see one, you could say that there is no room for more dirt. But I have learned to love this Someone's feet, problem is His feet has a hole in the middle. But that hole saved many lives and until now, many people recognize Him as Greatest. I don't have to say his name, if you're reading this most probably you know HIM.

Model wannabe

I got into a model search, it was great, we had to practice only twice a week on saturdays and sundays but now I'm not gonna continue to join the pagent. I chose to go to bicol to attend something more important than being somewhere else. I can't deny the fact that I would love to become one of the people who could be given a chance to walk in the runway but I can't live with the regret that I chose something over someone I already made a commitment to. I love HIM to much to not accept his invitation.

Money Matters

one of my Godfathers gave me money as a gift for my birthday and for my trip to bicol. as days went by I said to myself by the time I go to bicol I would have more than enough money for me to roam the place but now, I don't know where it all went. Guess I should really have saved or I should learn to budget my money more. hmp. talk about enjoying my trip to bicol. now I'm almost robbed.

I don't know why I'm writing bout all this stuff, I'm not really sure why I'm doing this right now. I hate it when I don't have the answer to my own questions. guess I'm just bored. I really can't wait to go to bicol:) just remembering all the things I had to go through just to convince my mom to let me go. hahahaha I know that was something worth bugging my mom for. yeay!

suLyap sa Mundong Magulo...

mainit ang sikat ng araw na nakangiting nagpapaalam sa dapithapon.... pinipilit itago ang kaguluhan sa mundong ito... sa siyudad magulo, lahat ng tao ay walang panahon para tignan kahit saglit ang magandang ulap na gawa ng diyos nababalot ng usok ang bawat sulok puno nang salot na naghihintay sumulpot....


nang mga nakaraang araw marami akong nasulyapang aktibidades ng mga tao.. ito ang mga sumusunod...

• ma-mang ice tea-kuno

sa isang parke sa maynila nakulong ako sa buhol-buhol na trapiko at ilang minuto din tumigil ang sasakyang lulan ako. may natanaw akong isang lalaki, akala ko umiinom lang siya ng ice tea sa isang mineral bottle (naisip ko sosyal si manong, gusto may kulay) pero magulumihanan ako nang makita kong hindi gumagalaw ang ice tea niya kapag itinataas, dun ko na napansin na rugby pala yun at hindi niya iniinom kundi sinisinghot. parang normal lang ang lahat sa kanya parang araw-araw na niya itong gawain. mukha ngang wala na sa tamang pagiisip si manong dahil pagkatapos niyang amoy-amuyin ang nasa bote, bigla na lamang siyang titingin sa kawalan.

• babaeng mataas ang upo, mababa ang lipad

nung nasa kalagitnaan na ako ng paguwi ko may nakita naman akong isang kotse na may isang babae na nakasiksik sa isang puting lalaki... waring sabik sa... alam na... katulad ata siya nung babaeng nakasabay ko sa biyahe maiksi ang suot waring walang saplot nanaisin mong bigyan ng kumot pambalot.

• ito naman ay tungkol sa lalaking nakahiga sa isang sirang sasakyan... at sa likod niya ay pila ng mga taong tumataya sa lotto... nakakalungkot isipin, may panahon sila para tumaya pero wala silang panahon para tumulong.

pero sa kabila ng lahat ng ito, may natitira paring kabutihan sa mundong ito. pagasa at pananalig. malapit na ang pasko... isang linggo na lang simula na ng simbang gabi at ilang gabi naman ay noche buena na at ako ay wala paring regalo sa aking inaanak... haaay.... sa gabi habang ako'y pauwi natutuwa akong masdan ang makukulay ay makikislap na parol ng mga pilipino. ako ay mapalad at isa akong pilipino may parol, may po at opo sa salita at may pagmamahalan sa kabila ng kahirapan,kaguluhan at kawalan ng pagasa. sana magpatuloy pa ang lahat ng ito...


pero sana wag na magpatuloy ang mga masasamang kung ano man.... hahahahha... hindi naman natin yung kailangan para umunlad. GB~!

ang paglipas ng panahon

malamig na ang simoy ng hangin, dumadampi sa aking mukha, maginhawa, nagbabadya na malapit na namang sumapit ang pasko , parang kelan lang, ang bilis talaga ng panahon hindi ko man lamang napansin... isang taon na pala ang nakakaraan....



ISANG TAON NA ANG NAKALIPAS mula nang huli kong tinignan ang mga bituin ng matagal, pinagtuunan ng pansin at sinilip sa isang teleskopyo. naalala ko pa noon namumugto ang aking mga mata, nagdurusa habang kumakanta ang aking pusong nangungulila, masakit, pero kelangan tanggapin. ang huling beses na narinig ko ang tinig ng dati kong buhay sa ilalim ng madilim at maulap na langit... waring nakikiramay sa nangyari.

ngunit nakalipas na ang lahat at hindi ko na nais maalala pa ang madilim na detalye. haaayyy. naku....


NGAYON ako'y magsisilbi na lamang sa KANYA, ngayong binigyan niya ako ng malaking tungkulin na alam kong hindi ko kakayanin kung wala siya.malapit na ang araw na yun pero bago pa man sumapit ang kanyang kaarawan ay nais namin siyang bigyan ng munting regalo... mula sa aming mga puso... puso ng mga kabataang naglilingkod at nabubuhay sa ngalan niya.

BUKAS ay panibagong araw sa piling niya, at panibagong araw kapiling ang mga blockmates ko... madaming assignments at maraming dapat gawin... kainis! kulang na lang lumuwa mata namin kababasa! buti na lamang at isa sa hilig ko ang pagbasa. hindi man ako napakatalino ngunit kahit papano, alam ko na nakakasunod naman ako at mataas ang performance ko (nice english!) hmmm... hindi ko na alam kung ano pang pede kong masabi.

mabuti na lamang at hindi ako nangungulila sa pagmamahal ng isang PANGET! HMP! hahahahah!

after the darkness comes the light

yeay! after four days of blackout in the philippines! I'm back! wahahahaaha and I've gain weight grrrr!! all I did was eat, drink water, read 5 chapters of my chemistry book, sleep and complain about the efficiency of our goverment! hahahahhahah...


first day:

I woke up around 7 in the morning, I already knew day before that, that classes are suspended because of the strong typhoon. But it never crossed my mind that it was that strong that it caused a major destruction not just in the village where I temporarily stay but also in the other parts of the country. As I was typing the power turned of and that was the last time in four days that we had electricity. The rain was not strong but the wind was, and that caused many tree in our village to break down. my cousin kin and me went around the village to see the other damages and we were kinda shocked of what we saw, like a big monster crushed the trees in a single swing of its hand. total darkness filled the place by the end of the day.


second day:

The morning was bright and cheerful, the birds in the sky were chirping happily. but the damage can still be seen from the ay before, and because of that we were tasked to clean up the mess hmp! almost two hours of cleaning in the garden with some ant treats (super laki pa nung nga langam! grrrr!!! at gigil na gigil pag nangagat!). After that I slept (hheheeh favorite past time) then woke up after 30 mins took a bath, ate and slept again hahahaahah!!!! again there was no power that night but my cousin and me managed to do something else rather than stare at each other ... WE PLAYED MONOPOLY! after two hours of rolling the dice, buying properties and moving our "pamato" (hehehe) we grew tired and sleepy.

third day:

again the morning was beautiful and cheerful, we didnt have anything to that day AGAIN so we just read our books. and like the pass two days... all we did was sleep, eat, talk, and eat.


fourth day:

its been 3 days and we're geting annoyed because of the situation the phone lines we're also cut due to some I don't know stuff... and whenever ours is fixed the lines of the people we want to call is cut... but alas later that day the power came back! wuhooo!!! rejoice! But I as I watched the news and saw the destruction the typhoon has made, I was some how ashamed of myself. I was stuck in in the house complaining bout being stuck and not doing anything but eat and read... while other people have no house to be stuck to, no food to eat, nothing to do not just for a day but for almost 2 years and some unfortunately have no family to come home to, no one to embrace and play monopoly with, no one to talk to... just themselves. Tragic but true... sometimes we don't see how blessed we are than other people yet we still tend to complain about being in a situation very much fortunate for others.





Let's just pray for the victims of the typhoon and I hope that the coming storm won't have much destruction like the one that came. Be thankful that you're alive and reading this post heheheh.... even if it's not that good.



God bless everyone! solo dios basta!

another day... of blues and grays

I'm waiting for you


If only you can hear me whisper your name
If only you can feel my love for you
If only you can feel my pain
now that you're miles away
I'll wait for you to come back

I walk in the busy streets of the city
think only of you
wishing that you're walking with me
I eat alone in the cafe
imagining that we share the same meal
whenever I pass by your place
I pray that I could have
a glimpse of you
I'm still waiting, it's been months
but I still am

since the night we danced
you're like glue stuck into my mind
you're always in my dreams at night
and the words that you told me
I still can't forget... I hope it's true
coz I'm here, I'm waiting and
still waiting

The wind will whisper my songs to you
the sun will make you feel of my love
the stars will tell you I'm here
The moon will remind you of the last night
we held each other's hand
till the day you tell me to stop loving you
I'll be here, waiting hoping, wishing
to see your smile... again...

math time... composition

If only you know just how I feel


the emptiness in me is left unspoken
my love for you that can never be broken
if you would only know
how much I love you
our world would change
and we would forever be engaged
your smile is warm as the yellow daffodils
that colors my field of happiness
your hand that held mine
is an angel's touch holding me tight
the song that played when we first danced
is still playing in my heart's command
you are my love my one and only
If only the wind could whisper my words.
still in the midst of unrevealed emotions
I keep your memories in my soul's safe keeping
even if it was a week or two understanding
I will forever cherish those days
that I can have a glance of you
and now that you're far away
and we're going seperate ways
I hope somedat we would meet in heaven
and confess my love... and
I hope it would not be too late

yiheee... ahahahaaha... hehhehehe...

when you least expect.... you will get surprised!

a start of a simple day that went very ummm... how do I say this???? ummm... really! surprising.... hahaahahh.... ironic but when you least expect things.... they just happen...


last saturday was a great day for me... I woke up and started my routine... then went out in flip flops (even though I know that it's not allowed) I was just too lazy to change hehehe... I went to baclaran church as what I always do every saturday... like a devotion, something like that... anyway after that went to school and while I was walking in the walk way I was wondering where I would go if the guard won't allow me to enter... unfortunately when I reached the gate... the guard allowed me to enter... hahahaha... after class, I went to vito cruz to meet nicole (cause later that day I invited her to join me and my mom in divisoria). unexpectedly I saw my Highschool friend, peets. (usually call him pare) we had a chat... until we were seated in one of the bench in UM and we saw another friend of mine, lucky (mommy lucky to be exact) with her sister. they were waiting for daddy adel hehehehe... I was seated near pare when someone called me and to my shock it was my kuya's HS friends with my BROTHER! grrr!! I didn't know how to react until I said something stupid... "kuya bestfriend ko siya!" while pointing to peter hahaah... they were all laughing at me and teasing me... sabi ni kuya "wait dyan ka lang! wag ka aalis! may kukunin lang kami sa taas!(3rd flr) dyan ka lang! then after that my hand was shaking for no reason, pare on the other hand was also laughing at me hehehe... tapos bumaba na ulit sila kuya he asked why I was there and told him everything about the divi thing hehehe... good thing he didn't get mad... but actually I think that's a bad sign heheheh... he usually has questions for everything... hahahaah...

yun lang... gusto ko lang i-share hahahah..... wala akong masabihan haahahah...